If you have never been pregnant please bear with me, this will still make sense – but I am going to share an analogy from pregnancy to share a point.
When I was pregnant with my first born I craved cheese all the time. I ate so much cheese… string cheese, cottage cheese, hard cheese, soft cheese – you name something with the word cheese in it and I was eating it... all.the.time… Come to find out my body wasn’t really craving cheese, it was craving protein and I simply misread the signs and gave myself what seemed to be filling the void. (Now my first born and I have a dairy intolerance… go figure)
Bunny trail for a moment, don’t get lost…
Today was a great day, like a really great day.
Workout - check
Drink coffee while hot - check
Shower alone - check
Interview new team member for the studio - check
Get immense to-do list done with the help of our lovely Miss Katherine - check
Starbucks run - check
Shopping with a friend to renovate the staff lounge - check
Meet the teacher with adorable students - check!
It was a fantastic day! But I got in the car after all of that to drive home and I felt this little voice telling me all of the things missing in my life…. I wish my life were just easy, I wish something good would come to me without effort, I wish... well, you get the point.
I basically was talking to myself the entire drive… I am so glad that cars have Bluetooth now so I can hope some of the other drivers assume I am talking to a real person and not just myself.
Somewhere halfway back home I realized that what I was saying to myself was not true… It wasn’t true and it wasn’t going to help. You see, my heart – like my pregnancy cravings - is totally off base….
I used to have Psalms 37:4 (Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.) as my vanity license place number. What I didn't really get at that point was that my heart, it doesn't really know what it wants... or really, it doesn't know what God wants for me enough to tell me.
"The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?" Jeremiah 17:9
Sometimes my heart craves for cheese... and by cheese I mean empty flattery, attention, ease of life, wealth, to win and to just be noticed, just to name a few things.
"...whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think on these things." Phillipians 4:8
God wants to give us our true (longing after Him, heart beating in time with Him) longing…. But sometimes we don’t even recognize it because we are too busy smelling the fondu to appreciate the steak (Enough cheese metaphors yet?)
So what did I do? I forgot about that chat I had with myself on the way home…. I let go of the cheese, and then I parked my car and walked across the street from my house and watched the sun set and listened to the ducks squawk at me and the frogs croak and I soaked in the beauty of God’s creation, and I filled my cup full of Him and I asked for filet minion…
I don’t want cheese anymore, I want what God wants for me. If my coming steak, prepared by the most loving chef in the world, is anything like the other amazing things he has prepared for me (My kids, my family, my friends, my passions, my job) then it’s going to be way more amazing than any charcuterie board every could be.
I don’t know what you are craving right now… Is it health? Is it financial freedom? Is it a relationship? Is it children? Whatever it is, it might be good, it might be delicious in fact, but maybe God has got something better in mind, something for your GOOD, and not just for your right now satisfaction.
"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." Romans 8:29
I am sitting here (it’s dark now) praying for whomever reads this, praying that your heart would have a stirring like mine tonight to yearn for your creator, to yearn for the one who can satisfy you, to yearn for the giver of all good gifts… I am praying for me too, that I wouldn’t let myself get even halfway home without noticing the voice inside my head is the one who wants to destroy me, the one who wants me to yearn for more than God has given me already.
Thanks for coming along this journey with me!
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